This is a really hard one.
Maybe not for everyone, but for me – this is something I struggle with every day. The green eye-d monster has gotten the best of me since I was a kid, and I’ve never really been able to shake it. I wanted to share this post so that if anyone else struggles with this like I do – they can relate a little, or maybe feel a little less alone. Staying true to myself is something I’m working on every day but man, are some days harder than others! Why is that?
Working on staying true to myself has become my latest goal. I want to be able to appreciate what other people have, and move on. Rather than starting this hate-cycle which only leaves me wishing I was someone else, and picking myself apart. I was able to realise what I was doing was toxic to myself and completely unfair. So let’s get down to the nitty gritty of just exactly how I was not staying true to myself.
Well for me, I am constantly comparing myself to others. It was so bad for a while that I actually just left social media, so I could be distraction free and not just scrolling and looking at profiles of people I wished I could be. It’s not that I don’t like myself, but for whatever reason – I’ve always thought other people were just somehow better. I wanted what they had, wanted to wear what they wore, and consistently criticized myself if I didn’t look enough like someone or if the outfit I re-created wasn’t as similar as theirs.
It’s been so bad that sometimes I see photos of myself and I don’t even like them because I don’t look like the person I am currently envying. How messed up is that? But, we all have our flaws. Jealousy and comparison are definitely one of mine. Part of dealing with it was accepting it, and now I am learning from it, learning to love myself and working on it every day! Nobody – (and I do mean absolutely nobody) is perfect! But there is nothing wrong with that. We are only human!
Why I want to stay true – and why you should, too:
The reason this is so important to me is that I know how it feels to be envious, or to feel like you aren’t living as amazing of a life as someone else. It feels like total shit and you can spiral pretty quickly. For that reason alone, both for myself and others – I’ve begun the process of staying true to myself. I still waver – nothing is fixed overnight. However, I’m doing things like posting more “real” looking shots on my Instagram and sharing with people when I am having a shitty day, or feel anxious, or over-all just am not living the “perfect” life.
Ilove amazing images and portrait photography, don’t get me wrong. I still love to play and create images like that – but I just want to go in a more “real” direction with the outfits that I share, or my day-to-day life. I’d like to use the professional images on my blog, because lord knows I love a beautiful website. However, on Instagram, where I am posting every day and sharing more of my life – I want to keep it real. Even if I only influence 15 people, it doesn’t make a difference. I want people to know who I really am and know my heart, not some facade that’s created with misleading people and false representation of what is happening in my day-today life.
Not some facade that’s created with misleading people and a false representation of what is happening in my day-to-day life.
How do you stay true to yourself? Does it come easy, or do you struggle little like me? Let me know in the comments below, I’d love to hear and connect with anyone who this resonates with!